Finding My Way.
My way so far is shaping out to be a dark thriller. It has plenty of gore, it’s fast-paced and contains elements that are both shocking and realistic. However, I did have some trepidations about taking on the topic for my first thriller because I know how it, by its very nature, may create strong reactions in some.
I took time to reflect on why I am writing about that topic. Here is what I’ve concluded. I write because I have something to say, share, and express. Do I wish I could please everyone? The answer to this is; that I know I can’t, so I will do my best to write a great story.
Writing, for me, is a creative process of telling a tale on a topic close to me. Interestingly, when I was a paintress, creating pieces on queer women and their lives, or creating a series about vulvas, or even some mild erotica, I would sometimes get criticized because the paintings disturbed the status quo. Yet, I persisted because it was on those topics I was interested in speaking.
As a creative, I have one objective in mind: to explore and speak about what comes under my gaze. If I am true to myself, to my vision and voice, then I cannot be that fish, flopping about on dry land, not knowing what to do or where to go. I welcome the precious help I receive from other writers and friends, and I use much of what is brought to my attention; I am learning, after all. I absorb insightful suggestions willingly and with enthusiasm and will continue doing so in the future.
I find my way by listening to the story in my mind. I’m not looking to fit in at any cost, especially not the cost of my vision. I’m not the type of writer like I wasn’t a paintress who produced to please. Will I enjoy commercial success?