and trusting myself to put it out there. I first began writing my story because of a need to better understand myself, a bit like I have a habit of doing when working on a painting, I will get up from the easel and back away some ten feet and just relax and look at what I have done and then decide on one thing I really want to change in order to improve upon the painting, I do this throughout and it has served me well. I mention the… Read more Trusting my story to my co-writer. →
Stories, written and in films, often treat trans characters as deficient, as broken, rarely looking any deeper than their appearance. Trans characters in film usual fall into mostly negative narratives, usually dependent upon others good graces for their survival. Family and friends get to be who decides if the trans character will be accepted, tolerated and simply thrown away. My story has not been sensational, my struggles though personal can be found in the lives of so many. My memoirs, I hope, speaks more to resolve and of a deep… Read more All Stories are New. →
I look upon my memoirs as a throwback genre of how women such as myself used to write their memoirs , mainly about childhood and when I knew I was a female in the wrong body, about the transition. Then I read my story and discover that it’s so much more than this, my life, even as it relates to being trans from birth, speak to adventures I’ve had along the way, my memoirs are filled with all manner of events, usually having little to nothing to do with being… Read more Another Trans memoir, maybe not. →
The first time I dressed in the gender I knew myself to be I felt an overwhelming sense of being right, I could finally allow myself to open up as a woman. Imagine hiding from yourself for about forty-five years only to finally find the wherewithal to come out at long last, and this only because your life depended on it. I would, whenever I could draw and paint female models, feel as though this brought me closer to who I was, it was like a secret way in which… Read more The First Time. →
I wrote my memoirs partly because I saw it as a way to show women like myself as being human, with all this entails. My story is imbued with tragedy and humour, with self-loathing and acceptance, I wanted to share how my mind was able to survive thanks to what I would describe as my creativity which allowed me to often transport myself elsewhere when things got too difficult.I wanted to tell a story of hope and of coming into one’s own with a good measure of happiness and I… Read more Motivations. →
Yesterday, on not one but at least two different Facebook book groups that I’m on, I was told how brave and courageous I was simply because I transitioned. I know that these people are well meaning and all, that they were likely being supportive and wanting to share their encouragement with me. But here’s the truth of the matter, and I do think this happens to people all the time and for many reasons, it took little to no courage, it wasn’t particularly brave of me to go through with… Read more On Being Brave →
How do I know I am a woman since there are those who would push back on who I know myself to be, who would tear me down, lay waste to my very sense of self, all in the name of purity. But they are wrong. I am a woman and like most women, I am unique in many ways and do not fit neatly into a preconceived mold of femininity or femaleness, of hormone levels, menstrual history, not even of how one is raised. I am a woman full… Read more Am I a Woman. →
My story and why I decided to finally write it. I can say right off that this is not the story of a heroine, because I am decidedly not such a person. There have been many memoirs written by women like myself, women of trans origin. I originally started putting words to my Pages app a few years ago, mostly because I needed to read my own words and work through my feelings and try and get a better understand of who I am. When I began to transition, I… Read more Why I wrote my story. →
